Overwork, illness, and marriage
As well as launching into this intensive study of
transmutation, Darwin became mired in more work. While still rewriting his
Journal, he took on editing and publishing the expert reports on his collections, and with Henslow's help obtained a Treasury grant of
£1,000 to sponsor this multi-volume
Zoology of the Voyage of H.M.S. Beagle. He agreed to unrealistic dates for this and for a book on
South American Geology supporting Lyell's ideas. Darwin finished writing his
Journal around
20 June 1837 just as
Queen Victoria came to the throne, but then had its proofs to correct.
Darwin's health suffered from the pressure. On
20 September 1837, he had "palpitations of the heart". On doctor's advice that a month of recuperation was needed, he went to Shrewsbury then on to visit his Wedgwood relatives at
Maer Hall, but found them too eager for tales of his travels to give him much rest. His charming, intelligent, and cultured cousin
Emma Wedgwood, nine months older than Darwin, was nursing his invalid aunt. His uncle
Jos pointed out an area of ground where cinders had disappeared under
loam and suggested that this might have been the work of
earthworms. This inspired a talk which Darwin gave to the Geological Society on
1 November, the first demonstration of the role of earthworms in
soil formation.
William Whewell pushed Darwin to take on the duties of Secretary of the Geological Society. After first declining this extra work, he accepted the post in March 1838. Despite the grind of writing and editing, remarkable progress was made on transmutation. While keeping his developing ideas secret, Darwin took every opportunity to question expert naturalists and, unconventionally, people with practical experience such as farmers and
pigeon fanciers. Over time his research drew on information from his relatives and children, the family butler, neighbours, colonists and former shipmates. He included mankind in his speculations from the outset, and on seeing an
ape in the zoo on
28 March 1838 noted its child-like behaviour.
The strain took its toll, and by June he was being laid up for days on end with stomach problems, headaches and heart symptoms. For the rest of his life, he was repeatedly incapacitated with episodes of stomach pains, vomiting, severe
boils, palpitations, trembling and other symptoms, particularly during times of stress, such as when attending meetings or dealing with controversy over his theory. The cause of
Darwin's illness was unknown during his lifetime, and attempts at treatment had little success. Recent attempts at diagnosis have suggested
Chagas disease caught from insect bites in South America,
Ménière's disease, or various psychological illnesses as possible causes, without any conclusive results.
On
23 June 1838, he took a break from the pressure of work and went "geologising" in Scotland. He visited
Glen Roy in glorious weather to see the parallel "roads", horizontal ledges cut into the hillsides. He thought that these were
raised beaches: they were later shown to have been shorelines of a
glacial lake.
Fully recuperated, he returned to Shrewsbury in July. Used to jotting down daily notes on animal breeding, he scrawled rambling thoughts about career and prospects on two scraps of paper, one with columns headed
"Marry" and
"Not Marry". Advantages included "constant companion and a friend in old age ... better than a dog anyhow", against points such as "less money for books" and "terrible loss of time." Having decided in favour, he discussed it with his father, then went to visit Emma on
29 July 1838. He did not get around to proposing, but against his father's advice he mentioned his ideas on transmutation.
Continuing his research in London, Darwin's wide reading now included "for amusement" the 6th edition of
Malthus's An Essay on the Principle of Population which calculates from the birth rate that human population could double every 25 years, but in practice growth is kept in check by death, disease, wars and famine. Darwin was well prepared to see at once that this also applied to
de Candolle's "warring of the species" of plants and the struggle for existence among wildlife, explaining how numbers of a species kept roughly stable. As species always breed beyond available resources, favourable variations would make organisms better at surviving and passing the variations on to their offspring, while unfavourable variations would be lost. This would result in the formation of new species. On
28 September 1838 he noted this insight, describing it as a kind of wedging, forcing adapted structures into gaps in the economy of nature as weaker structures were thrust out. He now had a theory by which to work, and over the following months compared farmers picking the best breeding stock to a Malthusian Nature selecting from variants thrown up by "chance" so that "every part of [every] newly acquired structure is fully practised and perfected", and thought this analogy "the most beautiful part of my theory".
On
11 November, he returned to Maer and proposed to Emma, once more telling her his ideas. She accepted, then in exchanges of loving letters she showed how she valued his openness, but her upbringing as a very devout
Anglican led her to express fears that his lapses of faith could endanger her hopes to meet in the afterlife. While he was house-hunting in London, bouts of illness continued and Emma wrote urging him to get some rest, almost prophetically remarking "So don't be ill any more my dear Charley till I can be with you to nurse you." He found what they called "Macaw Cottage" (because of its gaudy interiors) in
Gower Street, then moved his "museum" in over Christmas. The marriage was arranged for
24 January 1839, but the Wedgwoods set the date back. On the 24th, Darwin was honoured by being elected as
Fellow of the Royal Society.
On
29 January 1839, Darwin and Emma Wedgwood were married at Maer in an Anglican ceremony arranged to suit the Unitarians, then immediately caught the train to London and their new home.